An interview that didn’t go well.

Assessments that are yet to done.

Pending placement that has no pay.

Requirements that are needed.

Pending exam.

Needed to review but sooooo lazy to do so.

Big 3-0 just around the corner.

Tired body.

Lonely heart.

Aching brain.

Don’t mind me, it’s just my PMS talking.

xx

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Yung may opportunity na nasa kamay mo na.

Oportunidad pa lang, malaking bagay na.

Hawak hawak mo na, higpit ng kapit mo. Ayaw mong ibukas ulit ang palad mo at tingnan kung nandun talaga kasi baka tumapon, kumawala.

Tuwang tuwa ka.

Binasa mo mga requirements.

Aba, kaya ko to.

Aba, meron ako nito.

Basa.

Scroll down.

Ng makarating na ako sa dulo, gumuho lahat.

Kahit anong higpit ng hawak ko, tumapon pa din.

Kumawala pa din.

Nagpumiglas.

Tumakbo.

MUST be a Permanent Resident or Citizen.

Ang pitong salita na tumanggal sa oportunidad.

Hay.

Eto, susubok na lang ulit.

Magpapakatatag.

Di susuko.

Sa muling pangangarap.

Sa muling pagkatok ng oportunidad.

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Lazy 2.0


Heaps of assessments to be done.

(Almost done with the other assessments and 1 of 3 done for mine)

Clothes to be folded.

(I have had 2 or more laundry done.)

Beds left unmade.

(Most days the beds are made. :))

House 2 weeks uncleaned.

(Cleaned it already, and needs to be cleaned again.)

Toilet is filthy AF.

(Thank God , was able to clean it and it is sparkling clean now. hehe. Nothing beats a very clean sanitised bathroom. :))

Resume to be updated.

(Updated but needs further updates)

Certificates to be scanned.

(Scanned some, still need to scan some more)

Resumes to be sent.

(Sent! *cross fingers*)

Exam to be booked.

(Booked! *kneels and prays*)

Documents to be encoded and processed.

(Encoded! but still needs to be processed)

Dinner to be cooked.

(I cook dinner lately because I’m the only available person most of the nights. Not complaining though, I’m actually grateful that I am learning to cook now, I’m a loooong way to go to atleast cook like tatay but then as long as its edible and my housemates eat it, no problemo. haha)

Yet my rest days are just rest days literally.

(I had a productive restday today though.)

(Aside from the assessments, encoding and the docs, was able to do the laundry, go to the coin laundry to dry the clothes (malamig naaaa, yey), and grocery shopping)

(Pero masarap pa ding maging) Kamatose.

I’m lazy like that. (And sometimes not.)

xx

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Samsoon


Pinapanuod ko ulit yung My Name is Kim Sam Soon.

Una ko syang napanuod ng 18 years old pa lang ako.

Nagustuhan ko sya dati kasi nakakaaliw at nakakakilig. Yun lang.

Pero ngayong pinanuod ko sya ulit, grabe relate kung relate.

Katulad ni Sam Soon, 29 turning 30 na ako.

Ang edad kung saan lahat ng tao sa paligid ay pimepressure ka na dapat magka asawa ka na o magka-boyfriend man lang.

Mataba din sya at gustong pumayat.

Mahilig din syang kumain.

Matabil din ang dila.

Pati porma nya (2005 porma) halos ganun pa din akong magdamit ngayon. Haha. Lalo yung pambahay nya, malaking shirt at malaking shorts.

Baker sya. Ako pangarap maging baker.

Pero di tulad ni Sam Soon, di ako hayok sa pag-ibig.

Doon sa drama, gustong gusto na nyang magpakasal. Nag give in sya sa dikta ng society na dapat na syang magpakasal.

Paniniwala ko kasi, kung wala naman talaga bakit kailangang ipressure ang sarili?

Kumbaga, kung for the sake lang na mag-conform sa society at sa expectations nila, bakit ka magpapakasal.

And besides, wala din naman akong mapapangasawa. Hahaha.

Kahit ilang beses nila akong i-pressure, wala naman akong mahahatak sa dambana.

Don’t get me wrong. I do like to get married.

Meron na ngang perfect wedding sa utak ko eh. Ultimo little details, naiisip ko. Haha. (Groom na lang kulang.) 🤣 

I do like to have a family of my own. I want to bear a child. I want to raise kids of my own.

Pero ano gagawin ko?

Eh sa wala eh. Alangan namang magmakaawa ako sa unang lalaking makita ko sa kanto?

Hindi ko din gustong magka love life dahil din sa kelangan. Dahil sa pressure. Dahil matanda na ako.

Sabi ko nga kung wala, edi wala. I just need to live with that fact. I will not sulk in the corner because I’m an old maid.

No biggie.

Kung meron, edi Thank God! Hallelujiah! Hehe.

Ayun na nga, gusto ko lang naman talagang ikwento na nag-binge watch ako ng My Name is Kim Sam Soon at nakakarelate ako ng very, very light sa kanya. Hahaha.

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Lazy


Heaps of assessments to be done.

Clothes to be folded.

Beds left unmade.

House 2 weeks uncleaned.

Toilet is filthy AF.

Resume to be updated.

Certificates to be scanned.

Resumes to be sent.

Exam to be booked.

Documents to be encoded and processed.

Dinner to be cooked.

Yet my rest days are just rest days literally.

Kamatose.

I’m lazy like that.

xx

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I had a battle with a demogorgon earlier.

And I lost.

Painfully.

I just cursed and cursed after the lost battle. Wishing her painful life, not death. Death is too kind for her.

And I cried.

I cried a river.

I cant remember the last time I cried because of suppressed rage and grudge.

Earlier, I realized that I am no angel. I am no saint.

I cant help but be really angry with the excuse of a human ( if she really is a human) demogorgon that spits derogatory words that left me in so much hatred towards her.

I cant just think that its alright. She is still an old woman. That she is still a Filipino. That she is still human.

Pero Tangna lang eh. Di ko kaya.

Di ko maisip na tao sya.

I am really sorry self for being this unkind. For thinking ill of others.

I am sorry if what I can do is to just curse, cry and wish her bad things.

I am sorry self if I am weak. That I wasnt able to fight back. 

Kakapanuod ko pa naman ng Princess Diaries when Joe quoted Eleanor Roosevelt.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

I let the demogorgon made me feel so inferior, so small even without my consent.

Sorry again, self.

Anyways, after the endless tanginas and you know whats. Hahaha. What can I do is just move on. Pray to God that He will forgive me for today and I hope that karma will soon be on the way of the demogorgon.

Sorry self if I consumed myself with anger. Sorry, sorry.

Lets move on, okay? Lets?

xx

PS. Tangna talaga yang demogorgon bitch na yan. May araw ka din.

Last na. Sa ngayon. Lol. ✌

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My 2 cents


I am not a huge fan of our president but I do not hate him. I would like to believe that he is true to his words that he wants to change our country. But that doesn’t mean I like or believe every single words of Mocha and Sass.

I am not a fan of Satur Ocampo and his idealism but I still love Atom Araullo who idolizes him.

I am not a fan of the Marcoses but my father is. And *ehem* crush ko pa din si Borgy *drools*.

I do believe that the Cojuangcos are bad oligarchs who abuses farmers but I can’t help to watch a Kris Aquino talk show or a Mikee Cojuangco old movies.

I am not a fan of Leni, she reminds me so much of GMA (even her smile) but I would like to give her the benefit of the doubt. I just really hope that she will not allow people around her to use her as a tool to destabilize the present administration.

I don’t like Pacquiao as a politician/law maker for that matter, but I like him as a sportsman.

I don’t believe in violence. I do not like watching MMAs and boxings. I feel like they are just modern Gladiator event. I do not believe in killings and death penalty but I believe that we need some capital punishment (I still don’t know what would it be) for the criminals to be afraid in committing crimes.

I like Bianca Gonzales, but I do not agree with all her opinions.

There’s a lot of beliefs and idealism of Atom Araullo that I disagree with but I still love him.

Did I mention that I adore Atom? Hahaha.

I believe that the major news networks/ media can control the news but I still read and watch their programs. 

Siguro ang gusto ko lang sabihin ay hindi porke’t gusto ko at iniidolo ko ang isang tao ay paniniwalaan ko na lahat ng sinasabi nya. Hindi porke’t di ako naniniwala sa mga paniniwala at aksyon ng isang tao ay dapat galit na ako sa buong pagkatao niya at sa mga taong nakapaligid sa kanya.

Sa panahon ngayon kasi napapansin ko its either you detest them or you worship them. There will be no in between.

Pulahan. Dilawan. Bawal maging Neutral kasi wala ka daw paninindigan. Wala ka daw buto at utak.

I just feel that we Filipinos have so much hate with the other parties who do not share our beliefs and political allies. 

I feel that we are so much divided more than ever. 

Sana naman, sana naman – magkaisa naman tayo.

Para man lang sa susunod na henerasyon.

Wala lang. Malapit ko na naman ulit i-deactivate FB ko. Ka-stress na ang political awayan. Hahaha.

xx

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